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If there’s one thing that really blows my fuse instantly, it would be getting hung up by someone just like that. It is just PURE rudeness and disrespect. There was no “byes” or whatsoever, just the click of the phone.

I just had done to me.

It was an accident of course; clarified and dismissed casually. However, this incident really made my head  started to whirl with many thoughts.

How many times did we just hung up on God just like that?

All that overnight prayers that never had an “Amen”; all the silent prayers that were interrupted by friends that were eager to talk to us.

I’m sorry God.

There is no such thing as a simple sin. There are only complex sins, multiple sins in one action.

If I were to steal, the sin will not only be thievery, but probably jealousy, insecurity, perhaps even greed as well.

In a way, this complex sin concept is like the fruit of the spirit.

One fruit, many parts; one action, many sins.

What many men seek is often under their nose. But for some the unknown is too hard to resist.
-Eragon, Uncle Garrow

Sometimes, it always seems that…
the past is regrettable,
the present unappreciated,
and the future enticing.

I need to learn to have earthly satisfaction and holy discontentment.

And they said the issue with humanity was poverty…
We need forgiveness, not economics…

Title: Breathe Me
Artist: Sia

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I’ve lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

David did most…

not when he was a king,

but when he was a shepherd boy.

He sinned…

when he was a king, not a shepherd boy.

He killed Goliath…

not when he was a king,

but when he was a shepherd boy.

I guess…

it is better to be a shepherd boy sometimes.

New beginnings. Clean slate. Reset. Does it exist in this side of the world?

I mentioned quite a bit in the previous post of Pressing reset regarding why we desire for reset. However, the unanswered question at the end of the post strike me with an answer this evening while I crossed the road. 

I realized such things do not exist within the human relationships.

With imperfect forgiveness, a tendency to remember pain and selfish disposition etched in the human nature, such a thing is incapable of existing. Life with regards to human relationships is more like a book. You can start on a new page, clean and unblemished; but the records are already archived in the chapters before. Those people you have hurt will remember you and vice versa.

Our best hope for forgiveness and new beginnings would be God and his miracle detergent. As for humans?

Pray hard for amnesia.