I was very angry with God.

He gave me great imagination with great promises.

[Eph 3:20]
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us”

He gave me the capacity for dream and filled it to the brim.

I was initially overjoyed, but that emotion turned to fury as soon as I realize each of these dreams would take at least a lifetime’s worth of work to bring them into reality. With the amount of dreams He had given me, it is clear that I would not be completing all of them, and perhaps not even one of them.

I thought it was cruel of Him. Why let your son see the lollipops if you are never going to let him taste any of it? What kind of sadistic father is He? In a way, I empathized with King David. All he ever wanted to do in his lifetime was to build God’s temple. He had to fight and conqueror lands and territories so that his country would be rich and at peace, creating the suitable environment to build the temple. He fought all the wars so that he could build the temple. Yet in the end, God told him that Solomon, not him, was the one to build the temple, as his hand were stain with too much blood. (1 Chronicles 28:2-3)

Yet this is what the Bible speaks regarding true faith:

[Hebrews 11:13, 39-40]
All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.

If Abraham could have lived to see the entire number of children he had, the nation would have been a small one; you can only give so many births in one lifetime.

Any dreams that does not ask for a price is a cheap dream.
Any dream that does not take a lifetime is a small dream.
I used to think bringing dreams to reality is important.
Perhaps what is more important is the ability to pass that dream down,
Lest a big dream dies in your hands.

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